Crysanthemum 

He bought flowers the second he got off work, as soon as he could, and raced to the school. They weren’t anything big…and were only a few. Chrysanthemums, Sony”s favourite, as he’d learned a while ago. He stopped right outside the school, way too early for her, and walked up to the door. He grinned a little more and say down to wait on the bench outside. He sat for a long time, adjusting himself and watching the time on his watch before finally the doors opened and kids started walking out. He stood up, much taller than practically anyone else in the sea of kids. He couldn’t see her though, but soon he heard her. Her soft little voice, sounding happier than he’d ever heard it. 

“JAKE!!!!” It was sudden, and very close, and not even a second later he felt skinny arms wrap around his waist and felt her little body suddenly press into his. He grinned and hugged her back as tight as he could, without hurting her, with one arm, the flowers still hidden behind his back. 
“What are you doing here?!”
“What do you mean!? I always pick you guys up!” He looked down at the top of her head. 
“Yeah but you’re always waiting in the car or something…..” She looked up at him now, electric blue eyes wide and beautiful as ever. 
He laughed a little, “If you’ll let go maybe I can show you…”
She looked confused now, but pulled back from him slowly. He grinned even wider and pulled the flowers in front of his chest. He watched as her pale face soon turned a beautiful, rosy pink, and she looked up at him with the largest, most adorable eyes that caused him to melt. 
“J-Jake…….f-f-for me? Wh-“
“Of course for you! They’re your favourite right?!”
She just leapt up to hug him again, and he leaned down to her to wrap his arms right around her, flowers in hand. 
“Oh my gods I love you!”
He grinned even more, “I lov you too, Sony…” He turned his head and caught the frowning faces of a few girls, who were staring at him. He took a moment to press his face into Sony’s hair a little, holding her into him some, before he gently put her down and pressed a kiss right to her lips. She grinned even more into his lips and kissed back for a few moments before he forced himself to pull back. He caught the surprised looks inthe girl’s faces and laughed, “I love you so much…..” He ginned at her more. 
She held in a giggle and grinned back, “I know…..” She gently took the flowers and buried her face in the petals, before lifting her head with an even larger grin, “These are amazing Jake…..”
He just smiled a little more, “Then let’s eat them in a pot…”
“Vase, Jake, vase….”
“Same thing…..”
She just laughed. 
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I’ve been writing a LOT of fluff lately…

Carry On

Her friends were gone. Well…not exactly gone….just seven hours away……

She wasn’t close enough to them to get the tight hug she really needed. She wasn’t close enough that they could make a difference in what she was about to do. 
She opened up the drawer of her nightstand. 
No matter how many promises she’d made that she would never do what she was about to do….she couldn’t help it. She needed to focus on something else besides the pain she felt at losing them. 
She picked up a small box, pulling off the lid slowly. 
She couldn’t live without the people she’d finally grown so close to. She couldn’t live without the ability to hear them speaking. She couldn’t do it. 
She pulled out a small, metal object. 
She’d told them so much. She talked to them whenever she was sad or felt alone. Or just hurt…..
She watched as the metal, shining in the dim light in her bedroom. 
She talked to them when she just needed to vent. And she talked to them when she was in a good mood. They were her everything. 
She lowered it to her arm. 
She couldn’t take this anymore. She was so ready to die. Just to disappear forever. But she knew that her friends would be disappointed so she kept going. 
She pushed it into her skin firmly and pulled it across. 
Tears brimmed in her eyes. She had to be strong. For them. For each and every one of them. Stay alive until she could see them again. 
She did the same thing not even an inch away from the first. 
Could she say strong for that long? Could she really handle being so far?
She did it again. 
She had to try. She couldn’t disappoint them like that. 
She dropped the object.
‘No more’ she told herself. ‘No more. You hurt enough-‘
But she picked it up again and forced it deeper into the skin. 
This time she felt it. She felt the blood start to drip off her arm, flowing faster from this new, deeper cut 
And it felt so good. So good to focus on something else for a change. This pain was a good feeling. It stopped the other feelings from coming. 
She took a deep breath. 
‘Carry on.’ She said in her mind, ‘Only a few months. You’ll be back home soon.’

Too Good

(this is so random and off….but it was fun…..)


He kissed me. He kissed me like my mouth was air, and he was drowning…and I kissed him back the same way. Like I needed him. I do. 


But I was drowning. In my own way. I was drowning in fear. Fear of having him…and fear of losing him…and fear of what I would undoubtedly do to make that happen. 


He pulled away after a long time, and pressed a kiss to my nose with his soft, pink lips, “You okay?” He murmured. 


I nodded slowly, but it wasn’t sincere. He noticed. He always did…


“No you’re not……”


“Levi I’m okay…….just…..”


“Was I going too rough? Or were my hands in the wrong places? I-I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable I-“


“That’s not the problem!” I took a shaky breath. 


“Then what is??” He put a soft, gentle, tanned hand on my cheek and I swear I could feel myself blushing. He wasn’t the only boy who had done that….but with him it all just seemed totally new and different……


“I don’t know…..I really don’t I just……”


He lightly pressed his lips to mine, and the blush traveled up to my ears. His lips were so warm…and he pulled away way too fast… “I love you Nixiia Storm…..okay? If your…scared I’m going to hurt you or….or anything I-“


“Levi I’m scared that I’m going to hurt you…..”


“What? How?”


“That I-I’ll do something wrong or s-something will happen and….and you’ll get hurt because of me or….or you’ll leave because I…..I do th-the wrong-“


He didn’t even let me finish before he kissed me again. This time hungrier, and softer, and….perfectly. A perfect mix of tenderness and want…


Love. He kissed me with love. 


And instead of pulling away to continue speaking, I kissed him back, and tried to put the same love into my own kiss. He seemed to know it too, and his strong arms wrapped themselves around my waist. I moved to him slowly, and one of his large hands moved up to rest softly on my back. 


I’d noticed things earlier about Levi’s kisses. It was as if he put his whole self into them. He kissed softly, and his jaw, hard and sharp, but still soft, moved softly and nudged me somehow further into our kiss as his hands moved to tighten his embrace. It felt good to be like this with him…to feel him underneath the cloth of his tshirt. Soft, but firm and warm. Perfect. To me at least.


I didn’t have much time to think further into it though, feeling him pull me from beside him right into his lap. I pulled my lips away as he did and his mouth only moved closer to mine. I pulled back more and he stopped to stare up at me with his gorgeous baby blue eyes. I slid my hand up to his bleachy hair and smiled at him slowly, “I love your hair….” I whispered slowly. 


He was still watching my mouth and I laughed a little, tipping up his head with my finger so that he was looking at my eyes. I grinned. 


“What??” He asked softly. 


“I love your hair…” I said again, “it’s so….soft…and feathery….and the colour is perfect….”


“You like my hair? Is that it?” He smirked a little and I felt my face go hot again. 


“No…..definitely not…..your eyes are beautiful…..” I leaned down to press my lips against them and he smiled some


“Like you are….”


I rolled my eyes and didn’t reply, instead moving a little to look gently at his face. I put my hands up softly, to touch the corners of his jaw, “I love everything about you……”


He smiled slowly, and I watched him. His entire face lip up when he smiled and everything moved. His eyes even smiled with him, and the creases in the sides of them deepen. Every single perfect tooth in his mouth showed when he smiled. One of his front teeth was slightly crooked but that just made him more perfect. 


He was too much for me. Too good. Too perfect. Too…..too Levi…..


“What?” He said after a little while. 


“I….sorry…nothing…..just…..watching you……”


“Is it okay to watch you too?”


I blinked for a moment, then felt myself smile, and I nodded. 


I watched him now and felt his eyes watching my face. I watched them as they traveled, and locked on my lips a few times, which caused me to smile before I studied the rest of his face. Is already studied it so many times before but it felt like I was always finding something new that just made him more amazing. His face was everything that made him himself. It was the first thing if really noticed about him when Id finally looked at him. Tan and sharp but perfect. His eyes were set perfectly in his head, baby blue and a little large but that just made them more wonderful. His pink lips, ever smiling, were smiling even wider than I’d seen them do in a while. His toothy grin was enough to make me grin too, and I felt pink rising in my cheeks as his eyes settled with mine and his hand moved to my face. 


“Nyx?” He moved slider slowly. 


“Yeah??”


“You know I’m falling in love with you right?”


I didn’t respond with words, not knowing how to respond, so instead I kissed him again. 
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(This…was not written very well….but it was fun and I haven’t posted anything in a while so…..whatever…..)

I Miss Writing

School is possibly the worst thing possible when it comes to writing. I mean how do some of these people find the time to write anything at all?!

I have started on a sequel to “I Can Not” and I barely have a page done so far. I’m having more luck writing meaningless stories that don’t have a point.

Gods, I haven’t written a post in MONTHS. I was going to do a blog thing in November… THAT went out the window…

I have so much inspiration for such little time. So many stories and characters to write about and I can’t even get started. I literally NEED to write and I can’t. And it sucks

Song of the Day Oct. 22

Soleil – Kagamine Rin – Joydreamer Translation

Sad, but beautiful song. I’m not entirely sure what it is about the song that I can’t stop listening to it………….but I just can’t…..

Plus…it’s amazing to listen to when writing…….as are most vocaloid songs….they give some awesome story ideas……..XD

Also…it’s 1 am so technically this doesn’t count as the 22nd’s song but I don’t care, it is…………

This is the shortest description I’ve written…….of anything…..like…ever………….

36 Questions

1. What is your full name?
Kathryne Elizabeth Kerianne Kole

2. When is your birthday?
Nov. 11

3. What is your zodiac sign?
Scorpio…….which is super weird though cuz the way Scorpios supposedly are I’m, like, the complete opposite……

4. Do you have any siblings?
Four…

5. Do you have any pets?
Sadly, no…..

6. How tall are you?
I think I’m 5″3′ – 5″4′ or something…?

7. How much do you weigh?
I have no idea…….

8. What is your hair colour?
Dark dark brown,  almost black

9. What is your eye colour?
Like an ambery-brown or sometimes black-brown……….

10. What is the meaning behind your name?
My first name, Kathryne, is Latin, and it means pure, or clear (………uuuh…) Elizabeth is Greek (I just love this………Latin and Greek I’m already halfway to CHB and Camp Jupiter!! XD) and it means God is satisfaction, Kerianne is a mixture of my great grandmother’s name, Anne, and my aunt’s name, Keri. It basically means Dusky, Dark, Sunny, Bright………..yes….I know this makes no sense I don’t even know how this happened………… and then Kole is either German or Irish……which I am both so either would make sense…………..

11. Do you have any tattoos?
Nope…….

12. Do you have any piercings?
My holes closed sadly………

13. What is your favourite TV show?
THERE ARE SO MANY!!!! Doctor Who, Sherlock, Rizzoli and Isles, Perception, Castle, Bones, (seeing a theme yet? XD) Warehouse 13……..

14. What is your favourite band?
You have got to be kidding me……………….let’s see…….Evanescence, We As Human, Skillet, Red, Chameleon Circuit etc…..

I’m just going to answer the ones I can’t with gifs………

15. What is your favourite song?
I Don;t know how to respond to that so here's a gif of epic hair being epic DoctorFunny reaction gif

16. What is your favourite film?

I can't take all this uncertainty! Reaction gif

17. What is your favourite food?

I cant do it tennant reaction gif

18. What is your favourite book?
I cant do it tennant reaction gif.....whell that escalated quickly.....

19. What is your favourite colour?

Deep purple, Silver, Lime Green, Black…

20. Who is you favourite actor and actress?
 I really like Jennifer Lawrence, she’s hilarious, and she seems very down to earth…
And my favourite actor is without a doubt this guy…

David Tennant wink gif
David Tennant

21. What is the last show you watched?
I literally just finished an episode of Once Upon a Time, like, ten minutes ago….

22. What is the last song you sang?
Weight of the World by Evanescence when I didn’t realize it…I was just sitting on the computer singing at the top of my lungs as my family’s just staring at me like, “………what the heck, Kat…..”

23. What is the last movie you saw?
Persona 3…..

Seriously though what the heck is wrong with this fandom??

Suddenly, Igor! Seriously what the heck is wrong with this fandom........

Igor and the Rest of them......................... reaction gif (what would this even be a reaction to...)

Persona 3 what is wrong with us......

This isn’t even the half of it…

24. What is the last book you read?
Fablehaven: Grip of the Shadow Plague – by Brandon Mull

25. What book are you currently reading?
Blood of Olympus by Rick Riordan…OH THE FEELS AND I’M NOT EVEN DONE YET!!

26. Where do you go when you are sad?
I hide in my bedroom or in the bathroom…..whichever is more convenient at the time…….

27. Have you ever been in a physical fight?
Yes and no…? I punched my brother on accident…..does that count…?

28. What is your worse fear?
Heights…..I wanted to go down this zipline but when I got to the top I got almostcried…………….

Enclosed spaces……I got stuck in this little area under my brothers bed and I got so close to passing out it’s not funny…..

29. What has been your worse injury?
I broke my nose once……but I was too young to really remember….

The only one I can really remember being super bad was when I got a really bad cat scratch on my chest. The cat was falling so she clawed to try and pull herself up and grabbed onto my chest…. She hooked her claw all the way through my skin and then tore it off…………………….

30. When was the last time you cried?

Watching The Fault in Our Stars……………….don’t tell me you didn’t do it too…..

31. A place you want to visit
There are so many this is not fair……………but one of them would have to be London……

32. What is your dream job?
Being an author……

33. Do you play an instrument?
own a guitar…….but I can’t play it yet…..

34. What is the last sport you played?
Soccer.

35. Are you a day person or a night person?
Night. Night. Night. NIGHT.

36. Are you a winter person or a summer person?
Depends on how cold or how hot it is here that winter or summer….


These things are mostly pointless but…..I can’t resist…………..

Song of the Day – Calling all Host fans!!

Lost in Paradise – By Evanescence

This song is for anyone who’s ever read The Host by Stephanie Meyer… Or even just seen the movie!

This song completely applies to Wanda….in every way I could possibly imagine…….

I’ve been believing in something so distant
As if I was human
And I’ve been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me

When Wanda realizes that, although some humans were evil, the one she’s stolen might not be……and also when she realizes that the Seeker is absolutely mad…….

All the promises I made
Just to let you down
You believed in me, but I’m broken

Her realization that she doesn’t agree with the way souls act….

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

Her realization that she doesn’t want to leave Earth……ever….because she loves so many aspects of it…..

We’ve been falling for all this time
And now I’m lost in paradise

When she realizes that she’s lost much of her “Soul” qualities and she loves it…..

As much as I’d like the past not to exist
It still does
And as much as I’d like to feel like I belong here
I’m just as scared as you

She now knows that they way they acted before, taking over other races, was wrong……and though she wishes she could go back and make the way she thought different….she cant….

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We’ve been falling for all this time
And now I’m lost in paradise

Run away, run away
One day we won’t feel this pain anymore

All she wants to do after is make sure that Melanie is okay……….she knows that she will feel the pain of missing everyone back on Earth for millenia, but she still loves Melanie too much too much to continue to have control over the body that she owns…..

Take it all away
Shadows of you
Cause they won’t let me go

She knows how much she’s going to need and miss Ian. And she knows that it will break his heart that she’s leaving. But she forces those thoughts away far into the back of her mind in hope that they won’t come back……..even though she knows they will…

Until I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

She knows how much she’s going to want to come back to earth…..and she knows that it’s going to hurt her so badly……..that’s when she realizes she doesn’t want to go anywhere else…..

We’ve been falling for all this time
And now I’m lost in paradise

Alone, and lost in paradise

She also realizes that she would be completely alone in whatever new world she comes to… She’s always been alone in a way……but now that she knows what true friendship is she finally notices it……..and she knows now that she would rather die………


BUT THEN EVERYTHING’S FINE AND ALL AND THAT’S WHAT MADE THE END OF THIS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven’t read this book in, like, two years, but I still remember so much of it……………I remember how hard I cried reading Wanda’s not-so-death………..then reading the next part like, “OH MY GOSH SHE’S ALIVE OH THANK GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!”

This entire blog is practically dedicated to fangirling, like, holy crud…………….